Hi everyone, my small following and future followers. It’s been a long and stressful break.
Well.. honestly. I have been through hell and back again. I see King Paimon in my mind’s eye as I am writing this nice and clearly. But going through hell can be really fucking good. I got out of a shitty relationship, I learned how to trust my spiritual path, my spirit guides, and my intuition. I had some really fucked up shit happen to me in 2016 that involved death, betrayal, and many forms of emotional, psychological, and even physical abuse.
But don’t worry, I have been through awful shit before so even if it was some brand new whole new level of evil hell to go through that I have never before experienced, I have always seen myself as a phoenix who rises from the ashes. I have just always had fucked up shit happen to me and rose again from the ashes, and right now is one of those times.
Now. People talk about the LHP’s trials and tribulations with the dark arts, occultism, and demonalotry. Well, if you are like me, your life just may have already started that way in the first place. I mean, it’s in my natal chart and honestly, since I started working with demons.. my life has never gone more smoothly.
Now, what I just said might sound contradictory being that I stated I just went through hell and back but it’s true. I only went through that horrible thing of my own free will. That’s right, I am taking complete accountability for my misfortunes instead of blaming it on the infernal empire. Why? Because it was I who made the wrong choices whilst my guides were warning against my choices. They warned me through telepathy, prophetic dreams, and intuition about everything. But I was so left brained and nihilistic at the time that I would not heed such warnings. Therefore I got my shit fucked up.
And yet they were there. They were there to catch me when I fell, to give me guidance, they came to my call, helped me manifest, and punished the person who betrayed me whilst blessing me. The motherfucker nearly got decapitated by the garage door in front of me whilst stupidly trying to lift it(the spring that lifted it broke). And that’s while I was holding my spirits back. Andras wanted to fuck some shit up. Then later while playing with a ghost app, the app said “look,” “decapitated,” and “messenger” and the individual messaged me on messenger, it was pretty funny.
Then hilariously I remembered talking to that person about the decapitated rider Irish fae called Dullahan, then later got two bindings of Dullahan spirits for my keep.
Anyways.. I have been up to a lot of new and old tricks. I’ve manifested a lot of things and healed a lot of things as well. I rededicated myself to my path and have been working with my relationships with my spirits, including Paimon. I suppose my efforts from before have manifest in him wanting to remain in my life. I have reinstated him into my daily rituals and dubbed him one of my patrons and rededicated myself to him.
Why, you may ask? I just feel the most comfortable with him. I love his royal energy, how he is dynamic, patient, and persistent in my life. He mends broken relationships and brings me gifts and causes enemies to give me things that I want. He also punishes my enemies and comes as soon as I call him. I pretty much see him around everyday unless he is tasked, then he jumps back to watch me again. Though he is a being of few words, what he says is always wise. And I can never turn down such a delicious royal energy. He hated my ex and came to me very persistently after we broke up.
He embarrassed my ex even once on a date. As well as gave his dick eczema. Yes, these spirits gave his dick eczema, hilarious. Anyways, my ex was like undiagnosed with a personality disorder. maybe borderline personality disorder? I am not sure. But it was like dealing with Dr. Jekyll and Mr.Hyde. A kind, understanding side and a boisterous, obnoxious, and destructive side. Not only self destructive but destructive to everyone around him. He pretended like anything his destructive side said was a joke, but honestly, my intuition told me otherwise. Anyway, he treated me like an abused queen, really fancy dates, kind, thoughtful, understanding then go to narcissistic, arrogant, and rude. We were on a date where his bipolar started to show. I was starting to feel shitty.
King Paimon pops up right in front of us, though only I can see him. KP says “Do you want me to take care of him?” And of course I say “Yes. PLEASE!!!”
Now, my ex is an extremely insecure, shy, delusional, petty, and weak fragile narcissist.
And you know how Paimon has the ability to influence?
Well… next thing you know he spills his drink. And he is totally aware, he is extremely embarrassed and he hovers his hand over his drink, he is so embarrassed that he cannot pick his drink up, frozen in terror as the tea and ice slowly gushes out and rolls all the way down the other side of the table. His cheeks are flushed, he is petrified and jumbling his words while mustering nervous laughter. It was like he was frozen in time as his cup slowly emptied itself. Everything went in slow motion and I got to savor every moment. The only thing uttering from my lips was “Haha, that’s what you get.”
The sphere of Saturn and the infernal have always been good to me in my nearly 7 year experience. They are so protective and persistent, even some lying in wait for me to reach a new level. My life is 100x more smoother since initiating myself and by spirits. That relationship was only the most shitty thing and I was warned profusely. In comparison to the continuous string of shitty things that used to happen to me back to back, hence my nihilism. Also, in my experience, the infernal are much more lenient than any other pantheon I’ve experienced as well because at least they smooth things out, support you, and warn you. But still, you have free will and they cannot protect you from your own perspective and mistakes.
I like how I just accidentally typed perspective instead of decision, though was it an accident or was I influenced? Perspective referencing my nihilism.
Also, in regards to working with the infernal, TAKE SOME FUCKING ACCOUNTABILITY , PEOPLE!!
Sorry, I had to.
Woooooo this post has really been taking the edge off of me, I was so stressed, haha. Been recovering from multiple illnesses and reforming my path. Had a lot of experiences, a lot on my plate, and apparently a lot to say. I really hope I can pop out consistent content without too long of a break cause apparently I have a ton to rant about, haha. Lots of good and bad experiences and well as misconceptions that piss me off. The infernal fire burns hot within me being a phoenix and all but never fear, phoenix have healing tears.
Aside from recovering from the shit I been through, life and my manifestations have been very good. I have had great luck, healing, progress, and my family relationships have strengthened ten fold as well as many unmentioned areas in my life. And yet there is still that minute sore of pain that I have to face, understand, and heal through consistent work. Though it is all the other progress I see in my life that makes that pain seem so minute and frivolous.
Now that I have ranted and raved, I want you to remember this.
You are all Gods and droplets in the sea of the great divine. It is always your choice to turn lemons into lemonade and water into wine. The power is yours.
Also, while I was channeling Paimon and I was casually talking about how much more powerful I have become because of my magick’s high success rate he said to me “You have always been that powerful, you have just been reawakening to it.”
And I am sure the same goes for you too.
Awaken to your power, damn it.
What do I offer Paimon? Yellow candles with frankincense oil and frankincense incense. Blue candles for emotions and black candles for hidden knowledge.
If you want him to help your business, you have to give him FOOD. He LOVES FOOD. And does not help business for mere incense. Cookies, cakes, pasta, and drinks. I get 4-5x business with daily food offerings. Though I hate looking at stale food, yuk. He loves it.
He is a busy demon but likes to study me all day. Hail Paimon!